How intensely BORING am I?
But it's true - I'm preparing for an audition, and the excitement and hard work of putting the whole thing together and working like I did in grad school makes me a much happier person. It makes me forget about the things that trouble me, like the distance from my family or the 6 months I have to wait to live with Tom.
There's something about being able to play an orchestral excerpt really well that gives me a pride I have nowhere else in life. It's something that doesn't come naturally to me, but is rewarding nonetheless. To be able to play in wonderful rhythm and with fantastic intonation are things I have to work very, VERY hard at, and the satisfaction of achieving those goals makes me feel not only like a more competent musician, but just a more competent human being.
See? BORING. Why could I not see buying a kiln for my apartment and learning pottery as something that would distract me from my own brain? If anything, practicing the violin just gets me deeper in my own head.
In any case, I've been picking up the violin a lot more often these days, making me a happier person. The end of the funk could be near... I just have to keep on having my consistent love/hate relationship with my constant companion.
And with that, I'd like to apologize for quite possibly the dullest entry I've ever submitted in my blog. Geez.
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