I know, everyone's just graduated, people are moving on and getting jobs, but still...
There's a guy I met tonight named Peter. I got to talk about Colorado with him a bunch, because he has family there. He goes hiking there and knew streets like Colfax and Federal. He was a percussionist in NUSO and I never got to talk to him. What a great conversationalist and an all around nice guy. I feel like we really would have gotten along well. He's leaving for North Carolina tomorrow - got a real live job in a symphony. We exchanged numbers... I can't say for sure that I'll ever see him again.
My good friend Kim is leaving for Germany tomorrow. I feel like I found some kind of soulmate or at least deep emotional connection with her... though we haven't been around each other enough to figure out what that connection is. But I love her. And I'm going to really miss her. I wish I knew her for longer... but I guess that just makes this whole process harder.
I guess I'm turning into one of those people who wants to know everyone because she's afraid she'll miss an opportunity to feel the biggest rush she feels - human connection. Actually, I don't know if there's a breed of us like this - it might just be me. And is this why I don't get on roller coasters? Because the thrill I get taking the hand of a person I think is amazing is enough of a rush for me?
Falsehood and geninuity are making a distinct separation here. By meeting as many people as I am, I'm starting to learn about people in general. I'm starting to learn about myself. To hold someone in an embrace that I can tell actually wants to be held in an embrace and feel that sympathetic connection - that's a feeling like no other.
I think in my next life I'll come back as one of those cats that lives to curl up in people's laps and purr and be pampered for hours.
I miss Peter and Kim already. I hope they have the best of luck in Greensborough and Germany respectively. And I hope beyond all hopes that I do indeed see them again. They have eyes of geninuity.
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