Kids having to take over as parents, parents too irresponsible to act like grownups about the whole thing - it's just not right.
And I just feel so awful - I don't know what to do, and I desperately want everything to be okay for him. As soon as humanly possible. It's the wretched speeding up of time that's the problem. It doesn't matter how hard you wish it, time just won't go faster. It's not unti you can think about something else until you realize the wound has healed and at least the initial pain has gone away.
I'm sick with fear and contempt and worriment. I can't imagine what he must be feeling right now. I can't imagine how this may ruin him, and I can't quite yet convince myself that this won't continually effect people in a various array of circles that two people just didn't consider when they reacted this way, pulling an innocent victim into the mix.
I love him so much, and I know he loves me, but there was something distant in his voice tonight... like the innocence and hope that he carries with him to feed his amiable persona had unexpectedly left him.
I know everything will be okay eventually. But the hearts that are hurt in the process - I don't think the behavior is worth this price.
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